"Wonder what hes doing? Should I text him.... ? No, not now, I should let him be, give him space, he will just find it annoying...but maybe... agghh, if I still think in a few hours that I should, then I can, Yeah Thats right..... What would N or A do ? Gaaad why am I so weird about these things... Okey If I just... Oh god, No I said something Stupid right ?.. great...and no reply... thats it then. wonder what he will think of me now.. Oh dear.."
Yeah, the obsessive circle, we think about them, we worry that were forgettable (well I used to), that if we somehow dont keep in touch we get forgotten, and the worst; our obsession thinking about what we said, what he said, what we said and might have been understood the wrong way, scared that we scare them away be writing one too many, wanting to "Fix Things" by explaining them and then worry about the fact that we were over-explaining.
Oh.. and dont forget about that blue mark on your Whatsapp conversation..saying that they did read it.. Why didn't they say anything ? What might they be up too... (anxiety)... what have I just done.. (Anxiety)... Im sure their out with someone...(anxiety)..no wonder their seeing other people.. (Anxiety)... Why Do I Always Do This ?
I used to be like this, All the time, Again and Again... Never thought I would learn to just be Cool, because thats how other people are ... All the time..(Right... ;D ? ) They dont act this way, their head doesn't trow cartwheels.
And now.. well sometimes I still have to have an all Rambo fight against all the worry that builds up inside, but Much more then before, I can let go.
I declared freedom from an obsessive circle.
You might have to say STOP to yourself a couple of times;... And I dont mean STOP for doing something ones in the first place, trust me, wont work, because eventually, you will slip.. But STOP to the embarrassment, STOP to the worry (that this stupid insecure action as you might tell yourself it is, has made a mess with no return).
By accepting yourself and not worrying about what they think you can break it. Accept your ways in order to let go of the anxiety.
When you let go of the Anxiety of "What did I do and should I do something now", you slowly stop falling into the loop hole of obsession. (There is nothing you need to Fix, because there is nothing that needs to be fixed). You break the cycle.
If they do not remember you, dont miss your smile or get scared of your few (Wonderfully weird) messy ways, they are not the one for you. (And do you really want someone who doesn't like you for exactly who you are ?) So dont worry, just continue being you. One Day the right person will stick around, or turn around and run back, realizing what a treasure they had.
And also, if all still is really early on you might be wondering and thinking of if their right now meeting someone else, and yes, if your`e not exclusive, they probably are, but guess what So can you. And if the thought of it seems to harsh to carry, think it like this (it helps me at least);
- By holding them tights they will want to run further, Think about it- if you wouldn't be ready for something so fast, wouldn't you ?
-Also (and yeah I know how weird this sounds) Its better to let them get it out of their system (yeah.. men.. well to be fair this is just us much women too) that way, if it ever got to that point that you two got serious, they wouldn't long for anymore of the adventures dating scene, And trust me you dont want to waist your heart on someone who doesn't want to be there..
And if you feel that you were more...and they still go around, well then who needs a player.. ? Not you. So, with a relief for saving your sanity and remembering your own worth, you can let go
And also, trust faith (no matter how superstitious it sounds..), what is meant to happen, will happen, there is no need to push it.
Breaking the cycle is never easy, and at times you will always fall back, but realizing your potential to break free is something that will carry you far, no matter how much of a pickle or forgotten you now might think you find yourself to be.
There is always a new day and chapter,
Signing off, A calm and confident Queen (in my dreams) Bee
.
Yeah, the obsessive circle, we think about them, we worry that were forgettable (well I used to), that if we somehow dont keep in touch we get forgotten, and the worst; our obsession thinking about what we said, what he said, what we said and might have been understood the wrong way, scared that we scare them away be writing one too many, wanting to "Fix Things" by explaining them and then worry about the fact that we were over-explaining.
Oh.. and dont forget about that blue mark on your Whatsapp conversation..saying that they did read it.. Why didn't they say anything ? What might they be up too... (anxiety)... what have I just done.. (Anxiety)... Im sure their out with someone...(anxiety)..no wonder their seeing other people.. (Anxiety)... Why Do I Always Do This ?
I used to be like this, All the time, Again and Again... Never thought I would learn to just be Cool, because thats how other people are ... All the time..(Right... ;D ? ) They dont act this way, their head doesn't trow cartwheels.
And now.. well sometimes I still have to have an all Rambo fight against all the worry that builds up inside, but Much more then before, I can let go.
I declared freedom from an obsessive circle.
You might have to say STOP to yourself a couple of times;... And I dont mean STOP for doing something ones in the first place, trust me, wont work, because eventually, you will slip.. But STOP to the embarrassment, STOP to the worry (that this stupid insecure action as you might tell yourself it is, has made a mess with no return).
By accepting yourself and not worrying about what they think you can break it. Accept your ways in order to let go of the anxiety.
When you let go of the Anxiety of "What did I do and should I do something now", you slowly stop falling into the loop hole of obsession. (There is nothing you need to Fix, because there is nothing that needs to be fixed). You break the cycle.
If they do not remember you, dont miss your smile or get scared of your few (Wonderfully weird) messy ways, they are not the one for you. (And do you really want someone who doesn't like you for exactly who you are ?) So dont worry, just continue being you. One Day the right person will stick around, or turn around and run back, realizing what a treasure they had.
And also, if all still is really early on you might be wondering and thinking of if their right now meeting someone else, and yes, if your`e not exclusive, they probably are, but guess what So can you. And if the thought of it seems to harsh to carry, think it like this (it helps me at least);
- By holding them tights they will want to run further, Think about it- if you wouldn't be ready for something so fast, wouldn't you ?
-Also (and yeah I know how weird this sounds) Its better to let them get it out of their system (yeah.. men.. well to be fair this is just us much women too) that way, if it ever got to that point that you two got serious, they wouldn't long for anymore of the adventures dating scene, And trust me you dont want to waist your heart on someone who doesn't want to be there..
And if you feel that you were more...and they still go around, well then who needs a player.. ? Not you. So, with a relief for saving your sanity and remembering your own worth, you can let go
And also, trust faith (no matter how superstitious it sounds..), what is meant to happen, will happen, there is no need to push it.
Breaking the cycle is never easy, and at times you will always fall back, but realizing your potential to break free is something that will carry you far, no matter how much of a pickle or forgotten you now might think you find yourself to be.
There is always a new day and chapter,
Signing off, A calm and confident Queen (in my dreams) Bee
.
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