Roar in the Afterglow

After a long work day followed by a ramble through all the buzzle and Christmas lights, with thoughts of why hes so silent, why he doesn't reply, do I always end up being the girl whos left behind... With these feelings in my chest, ghosts of the past and all the other challenging yet to come quests, I turn on the radio and soon I can feel how my little body starts moving to what I hear. With my washed Slash resembling hair and mismatched pajama, I find my self dancing to some Samba. Life is pretty great You know, Your own validation is the only one you need, so get up and Never stop dancing from your heart to this beat.

Well my head is really empty, but I really felt like I wanted to write something down, now that I finally am starting to get my energy back. I started a job with the best kind of title but soon it turned out that there was so much wrong. after it sucked up my life and left me with no routine, often wondering how long the next day would be. Leaving at 6 am and then staying there for up to 33 h, it was too much and not the kind of care with which I would agree. Carers need support and not to be asked Why, why are you tired, you know you get to have some rest, we dont count that shift as one sett? An empowering atmosphere is what staff needs, especially when taking care of those who are in need. But when so much of what is given is and has for a long time been a mess, and you still try to keep your head up high, work it through, hoping that maybe at some point it will clear up in your tired head. and then the response you get, is an angry and disappointed look and why haven't you don