Roar in the Afterglow

I am sitting at a cafe in a small town as the end of this trip I made in a country where I have never been  before. I turned 25 this weekend and it has lead me to think about getting older, I mean I am halfway to fifty and one quarter of my way to a 100 has now passed by (thanks grandma for pointing that out in the card..) but in a way that is a relief. I mean life has only started. But even though there is so much time ahead you start to think of the big ones, when does it all come together, when do you find them ? I mean 30 the ”you should have it all figured out” age is getting closer, And for a long time I thought that its the age of 27 that I will get married (do not ask why, it was just a number that sounded good to my ear..) but here I am, 2 years until that and I am sitting alone, went to sleep alone at my hostel, with this only roommate of mine, an older man in his 60`s snoring more loudly than all the 7 dwarfs combined. Well, it is not all that bad, no really, I had ...

I wanted to write this for all that anxiety that sometimes builds up inside, for those moments you start to feel the heaviness of that lump.  Sometimes we can not handle it, we can not control it, it just comes, and I think you have to accept that too, it will come and go. You might feel that you have trouble getting up in the morning, but I found, that the more you stay in the dark, crawled up in those worrying thoughts, maybe accompanied by a feeling of hopelessness, sadness, and.. sometimes.. maybe even anger, the worse you feel. I often then end up feeding myself with triggering intrusive thoughts, giving myself more things to worry about. It feels like tying yourself tighter and tighter with something so thick and (like walls so high) that you find it hard to see past it. But take a breather, there is a wonderful world behind that wall. Even a little cup of tea and the ray of sun can help you see that, absorb. Once you let yourself breathe, tears may fall, it is the acce...

Happiness, Perspective, Laughter, There is nothing better then girl time when our head is doing overlaps for all those love troubles in our life or when were stressed about overreacting, feeling low. To have our girls around often has the power to remind us of what is truly important; Our own happiness, not giving up our days for things that cause else and that we are incredible just they way we are ! It is like getting our light-bulb ignited often with that extra clarity giving advice, knowing that we are not the only one in those shoes, that empowers, opens up our hearts and minds and makes us realize things like;  - Let us not allow those boys use us as doormats, We deserve the absolute best ! - And even in situations where they never meant too, (but how can we know ?!)  and were the ones over-analyzing it, [ stressing due to confusion, doing our own conclusions, worrying were the reason, feeling low and then worrying of seeming crazy in their eyes due to al...