Roar in the Afterglow

I started my new job in book publishing (still can not believe it) I got here thanks to something I would refer to as a mixture of a lot of hard work and some lucky "how could this possibly have happened" strokes. After much emailing... and I mean over a 100 publishing houses asking if they would have an internship and I could work for them for free, calculating the months I had to wait to get through the queue to get to work for free, and after calculating how I would live life for 6 months with a full-time unpaid job and some pub work.. and sleep during and 70 hour work week.. I got a magical twitter response, some CV guidance over a coffee offered by this ferry godmother and some insights and an extra pair of eyes out to the industry and its people,.. ..... one week later a get an interview. It turned out to be the same publishing house that publishes the Scandinavian cooking book in our kitchen, plus several titles on mindfulness, humor and simple well-being. A week lat...

A few years back I wrote about healthy love- and how to know if you found it, I gave an example I use; Empty room, Travelling the world (and life) and your own feeling (do you feel happy ?).  To be able to answer these questions time is needed, unless we of course are thinking of someone who is down right hurtful, and after experiences and self growth we learn (step by step) to let go- and stay away from them..we can read faster...  ....But, all people are not bad (even though I am far too familiar with the fear and worry). There are so many good people out there, they are good- even though they might have some growing to do, they are good- even if they might not be right for us- what we need, and what we deserve. Individual needs do not always match- that is the reality of life. People are not like puzzle pieces.. and it is when we grow and learn to see our own weaknesses and others- that we realize that we have to stop expecting for prince perfect (he is human too). Thro...

What defines us as adults, what really says that we "Made It" ? Based on how the world is rolling, how expectations of success and its meaning is built up in our mind, our society.. It is a career is it not? It is a plan, it is a house, it is money, it is LinkedIn.. it is a desk, it is a title, it is a Volvo with the perfect quota of kids....  Or is it ? Is it the milestones, or is it the journey ?. And which journey..? The one where we lift the bricks and build our way to the top ? The journey where we want to fit in.. Or is the life laid in-between and under, the space behind the stage ?  The learning from our mistakes, the making of mistakes, accepting our flaws, living with them, acknowledging them? Acknowledging others around us.  Not hiding behind a mask- But truly living. Building (by listening and learning) the bricks to our own unique perfectly imperfect self, to the best selves that we can be.. laughing,  stopping, listening, feeling, understanding, ...

It is a new year, and I just heard seagulls outside my window, I always assumed that they were closer too the sea, but maybe it is a sign for where this year is taking me, bringing me back home and closer to whom I was always meant to be, the sounds I hear- masts in the harbor singing in the wind, the fresh air against rock and the ray of sun that spreads its wings. I might not be there, but I will listen to its call, this year I am breathing and in every moment find what I was searching for. home, peace and calm