Do you stress ? I stress a lot.
The past days I've been kind of busy with making sure that all the forms/document for my exchange and moving are correct, and the truth is, there hasn't really been that much that needed to be done (since I started fixing everything many many months ago), just some small things that are easily fixed, so why do I get so stressed about them? I always do that, I panic and I make things a bigger deal than they probably actually are, just because what if it turns out that its a big deal, than I have to do everything, and I mean everything to try to fix it, sometimes it feel like I almost search for the problems just so that I will have a solution for it if it decides to suddenly run into me.
But the thing is, I should just do what I can and then relax because I've already done what I can do for now. Over thinking doesn't usually mean that you came up with anything smart, or at least in my head it sound more like a stressed out parrot who's had to much coffee..and walks in an endless circle.
I know where the over thinking, stress and always trying to fix something comes from.., You know, If I Just..Keep things from falling into pieces.. I'm also very often afraid to do something "wrong" to by mistake fill out a form wrong or to forget something, I don't want to break the rules, and in my head the rules became the law, I don`t know, maybe I'm just an extremely law obeying citizen, and that's a good thing, Right ?
I've noticed that I also stress with having time to do everything and I mean fun things too, I want to live, and do all the things I never thought I would do, you know create myself and be that person I always wanted to be. I wonder sometimes where I get the energy to do all this things, all the societies boards, dance, scouts, exercise, work, volunteer-work , student parties, travel, Erasmus exchange, But I think I do know, Im used to this tempo..
Sometimes I have that feeling, and I know that its true, that I take on way to much, and doing way to much seldom leads much good. I mean sure you get to experience so much, but at the same time so much goes unseen, you might feel like you cant really concentrate on one thing when theres ten to keep track of. Your missing the good parts when you think of one thing while doing another. I don't know exactly how to put into words, but to me it feel like you miss the things and the feeling that matters. I want to pore my heart into something, not run around trying to find it, do everything. Because if you try to do everything you you don`t end up doing very much.
I still, from time to time, try to learn to say No, to let go and say Yes, to calm myself down; No, now I need a break, and No, I don't have to do that too, and No, I don't have to do that now immediately. And Yes, It will be fine and Yes its okay to take it easy !
Don't worry (to much),be happy (even for the small things), learn to calm your self down (Im still working on that) and try to shut down that inner stressed parrot or exhausted road runner.
You can take a break <3
The past days I've been kind of busy with making sure that all the forms/document for my exchange and moving are correct, and the truth is, there hasn't really been that much that needed to be done (since I started fixing everything many many months ago), just some small things that are easily fixed, so why do I get so stressed about them? I always do that, I panic and I make things a bigger deal than they probably actually are, just because what if it turns out that its a big deal, than I have to do everything, and I mean everything to try to fix it, sometimes it feel like I almost search for the problems just so that I will have a solution for it if it decides to suddenly run into me.
But the thing is, I should just do what I can and then relax because I've already done what I can do for now. Over thinking doesn't usually mean that you came up with anything smart, or at least in my head it sound more like a stressed out parrot who's had to much coffee..and walks in an endless circle.
I know where the over thinking, stress and always trying to fix something comes from.., You know, If I Just..Keep things from falling into pieces.. I'm also very often afraid to do something "wrong" to by mistake fill out a form wrong or to forget something, I don't want to break the rules, and in my head the rules became the law, I don`t know, maybe I'm just an extremely law obeying citizen, and that's a good thing, Right ?
I've noticed that I also stress with having time to do everything and I mean fun things too, I want to live, and do all the things I never thought I would do, you know create myself and be that person I always wanted to be. I wonder sometimes where I get the energy to do all this things, all the societies boards, dance, scouts, exercise, work, volunteer-work , student parties, travel, Erasmus exchange, But I think I do know, Im used to this tempo..
Sometimes I have that feeling, and I know that its true, that I take on way to much, and doing way to much seldom leads much good. I mean sure you get to experience so much, but at the same time so much goes unseen, you might feel like you cant really concentrate on one thing when theres ten to keep track of. Your missing the good parts when you think of one thing while doing another. I don't know exactly how to put into words, but to me it feel like you miss the things and the feeling that matters. I want to pore my heart into something, not run around trying to find it, do everything. Because if you try to do everything you you don`t end up doing very much.
I still, from time to time, try to learn to say No, to let go and say Yes, to calm myself down; No, now I need a break, and No, I don't have to do that too, and No, I don't have to do that now immediately. And Yes, It will be fine and Yes its okay to take it easy !
Don't worry (to much),be happy (even for the small things), learn to calm your self down (Im still working on that) and try to shut down that inner stressed parrot or exhausted road runner.
You can take a break <3
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