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A mother hen in the dating scene



I wanted to write a little about the struggle of giving things time, when taking time to know them and end up pushing them aside.

When you believe you should not start before you truly know you like them exactly as they are.

As time passes by you might find your feelings for them grow only to realize you missed the boat some time ago. The might have meet someone else while you chose to take it slow. 

You might find yourself giving them insight on how you wish things would be, 
how the right person would sweep you off your feet, 
and actually end up feeling like you given them advice,on how to make an impression on someone else they find nice. 

 I guess there are those who are ready faster than me.

From time to time you wish you could go back to tell your feelings sooner then they appeared, 
but that is not possible and after all being friends is what you need, 

And yes you care for them so you wish them to grow for however their life turns out to be.
I guess this is what the feeling of being a mother hen must be. 

It hurts to know I might miss out, that I let something good slip away,
but I am doing it out of love, I guess I just wish that some day they would stay. 






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