To make you proud (expectations)

........I should.......... As they would.......


....they look at me........

....What do they see....?...


What do I see ?.. Do I see me ? The expectations I picture and feel, they are
one at a time tripping over me. 

Like heavy whispers, suggestions, demands..

But nothing expected, just pre-made plans.

What if all I want for a moment is to stand and breathe,
mention an idea
and the next morning it changed suddenly, 

Would you still understand and look proudly at me, Im finding myself, that is my dream.


Through all my life I thought- what do you see, will you be proud of me?
But these bricks are now changing you see.

Its time that I took pride in simply being me,
its the part that so many of us forget, 
all so suddenly. 


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Cake

Yes my mind does change, and so does my mood. 

There are times Im upset, restless, cant decide between gym or ´cake for one´ for food.

sometimes that is my mood. 

Damn social media what did you do.

So many non- expected expectations I should follow too.

But no, because that is not the truth.

I will not build my life based on these cues. 

I have ideas, but too much hazzle to make it on to paper. 

I promise I`ll make more time, but that will have to be later. 

But life is a roller coaster at a boring speed, sometimes a nightly piece of cake is all you need. 

I will not let others eyes decide on where I need to be. 

Right now its raining, Im baking, and having a cup of tea. 

- To life-