Ive recently posted two poems about love and promises, the one where we promise our future partner not to look for perfection, but life as it is and them as they are, with all ups and downs. Facing all of them together and growing along that journey. Important as well however is (and before making that vow to someone else) is to make it to ourselves- that is, love ourselves unconditionally within this one person marriage. But marriage aside (that's still far away from where I'm standing.. if not light years), How do we open up to someone we are dating ? When do we share our past, our dark side? We all have lived a life, we all have a baggage. And we all wish to find that someone who will accept us as we are; full with flaws and growing. Like an uneven bucket of wild flowers- some of them strong, some of them needing more maintenance.
When we do decide to (or happen to) "spill the load" is there a thing called too soon ? Is the case that all people out there are looking for perfection, or are we looking for human beings ?
There are times I`ve held back, kept all the gates closed. Followed by tears from things that had been said, all due to miscommunication. Let them get to know you (and vice versa). Two Strangers communicating through a wall. Not the life I'm wishing for.
But sometimes it keeps them around longer.. but that's not the outcome were looking for (?)
For me now... I'm tired of hiding. And if I care about them- and believe in that there might be something here, they deserve to know. And I deserve to know if they can handle it. I cant change my past, All I can do is take care of myself and the people around me the best I can. But waves will come. I know that.
So I guess my answer (or suggestion) Is don't hold back, show your colours, all of them, dark or light, gray or bright. There is no reason for you to carry your load with secrecy and shame. You are the heroine of your journey. If they run, they would have run anyway. Eventually- you will find the one who stays. Who will see you for who you are.
Humane.
Live your life to the fullest, each and everyday.
When we do decide to (or happen to) "spill the load" is there a thing called too soon ? Is the case that all people out there are looking for perfection, or are we looking for human beings ?
There are times I`ve held back, kept all the gates closed. Followed by tears from things that had been said, all due to miscommunication. Let them get to know you (and vice versa). Two Strangers communicating through a wall. Not the life I'm wishing for.
But sometimes it keeps them around longer.. but that's not the outcome were looking for (?)
For me now... I'm tired of hiding. And if I care about them- and believe in that there might be something here, they deserve to know. And I deserve to know if they can handle it. I cant change my past, All I can do is take care of myself and the people around me the best I can. But waves will come. I know that.
So I guess my answer (or suggestion) Is don't hold back, show your colours, all of them, dark or light, gray or bright. There is no reason for you to carry your load with secrecy and shame. You are the heroine of your journey. If they run, they would have run anyway. Eventually- you will find the one who stays. Who will see you for who you are.
Humane.
Live your life to the fullest, each and everyday.
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