Ever been in a confusing situation where all you wished for was some answers- no more mess, just clarity. and still afterwards you walk around wishing that you hadn´t pushed it, caused stress, a dispute- a wall ? That you could turn back time. Still knowing what you needed to know, but without this post-argument hollow feeling. Could you have done it in any other way ?
- maybe you could have, but most likely not- you see tension builders are seldom a relaxed spot. Words will fly no matter what.
This "Cat on the table guilt" is carving me today,
Even though the words that were said came from good intentions & understading, it got intens. I do not want to cause you more tension (as you have enough with dealing with your mess.)
Yet it is so stupid- if honesty had gaps- it had to be discussed, You can not build anything healthy on grounds you do not trust.
I wanted it all out in the open, my mistakes/caused confusions included. We need to listen both ways. Sometimes miscommunication has lead to the cat´s excistens (in some parts and ways).
Like you said you needed head-space (pre-confusion caused), I now need the same. There is new infomation to be processed. But also- I need to get away.
But I do not care about you any less, even though my trust for you might have changed. I know, and knew all along- that your'e not in the right place. Just wished you were more careful when moving towards others while still in that mess.
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