Do you ever ask yourself, Where is this going ? Should I trust him/her? Or is this something worth fighting for ?
Ever since I started having crushes, meeting guys, beginning relationships (yes I dated someone for a year after the abusive relationship), theres a thing that I have done. I`ve asked for a sign that would show me which way to turn.
When I was younger and before I entered those 4 years of my life that brought me a lot of doubt, difficulty to trust and fear of that what I don't know, I asked for a good positive sign, something that would say, this Is something good, this is worth a shot. I was a forever optimist.
After my experiences it has turned around, I always seem to ask for that other thing, Show me now if theres something I should know.. jank me out of it if this is not the road to follow.. Yeah.. I guess as I'm writing this I'm starting to sound like a Optimist/pessimist Pocahontas, You know, her and the Grandma Wisdom Tree :D ? I mean I do have a Bonsai tree by my window, but as far as I know it doesn't talk and it certainly doesn't have a face and I'm not going to pick up a pen and "Tom Hanks" this one.. haha.
But seriously though.. Do you do this, ask your (I guess) Inner self after a sign like this, and hope that just maybe maybe you get an answer ? When your tired of getting hurt and just want a sign on what to do.
I don't exactly know who I'm asking these questions from, I'm not particularly religious, just someone or something that supposed to guide me, help me find my way and protect me from not getting hurt again, and hopefully give me hope in love again. The strange thing however is.. a lot of times I seem to get an answer of some kind.. so whenever I'm starting to feel like "Now would be a good time to know".. I ask that.. and wait for a sign.
But, the thing is, I'm getting tired of always asking the pessimist question, meaning that I ask for a sign that would show me whats wrong.. " Please show me what is bad " or " Smack me now so that I don't stick around to get smacked later.. "
So.. When will I be brave enough to ask something positive ? And to actually be brave enough to believe in it ? As I guided and helped to train a new volunteer at the Youth safe house last Sunday, we had a very interesting conversation about this.. The fear of the positive; the fact that your so used to the bad or that things take a turn for the worst anyway, that you get even more scared and suspicious ones something good shows up. You know ?
It takes a lot of courage to allow yourself to believe in those positive signs, and a lot of times they can fool you. But as I said so many times, one of the solutions to this one is time, you always have time, and if someone is in such a rush to get you and doesn't let you take your time, then there not the right person for you. Also, don't be afraid to look way from your idea or inbuilt belief of your karma. Yes, I know it might be very hard to believe that this time is might be good, This time my luck really might be turning. But as you look up for the warning signs...remember to always believe in love, and that you deserve it <3
Ever since I started having crushes, meeting guys, beginning relationships (yes I dated someone for a year after the abusive relationship), theres a thing that I have done. I`ve asked for a sign that would show me which way to turn.
When I was younger and before I entered those 4 years of my life that brought me a lot of doubt, difficulty to trust and fear of that what I don't know, I asked for a good positive sign, something that would say, this Is something good, this is worth a shot. I was a forever optimist.
After my experiences it has turned around, I always seem to ask for that other thing, Show me now if theres something I should know.. jank me out of it if this is not the road to follow.. Yeah.. I guess as I'm writing this I'm starting to sound like a Optimist/pessimist Pocahontas, You know, her and the Grandma Wisdom Tree :D ? I mean I do have a Bonsai tree by my window, but as far as I know it doesn't talk and it certainly doesn't have a face and I'm not going to pick up a pen and "Tom Hanks" this one.. haha.
But seriously though.. Do you do this, ask your (I guess) Inner self after a sign like this, and hope that just maybe maybe you get an answer ? When your tired of getting hurt and just want a sign on what to do.
I don't exactly know who I'm asking these questions from, I'm not particularly religious, just someone or something that supposed to guide me, help me find my way and protect me from not getting hurt again, and hopefully give me hope in love again. The strange thing however is.. a lot of times I seem to get an answer of some kind.. so whenever I'm starting to feel like "Now would be a good time to know".. I ask that.. and wait for a sign.
But, the thing is, I'm getting tired of always asking the pessimist question, meaning that I ask for a sign that would show me whats wrong.. " Please show me what is bad " or " Smack me now so that I don't stick around to get smacked later.. "
So.. When will I be brave enough to ask something positive ? And to actually be brave enough to believe in it ? As I guided and helped to train a new volunteer at the Youth safe house last Sunday, we had a very interesting conversation about this.. The fear of the positive; the fact that your so used to the bad or that things take a turn for the worst anyway, that you get even more scared and suspicious ones something good shows up. You know ?
It takes a lot of courage to allow yourself to believe in those positive signs, and a lot of times they can fool you. But as I said so many times, one of the solutions to this one is time, you always have time, and if someone is in such a rush to get you and doesn't let you take your time, then there not the right person for you. Also, don't be afraid to look way from your idea or inbuilt belief of your karma. Yes, I know it might be very hard to believe that this time is might be good, This time my luck really might be turning. But as you look up for the warning signs...remember to always believe in love, and that you deserve it <3
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